Changes I want

Hi again.   Welcome back.  And if this is your first time or you've been here a hundred times before, I'm glad you're here.

I am a very ambitious person with a big vision.  Problem is I tend to bite off more than I can chew and then get overwhelmed or frustrated and upset with myself, give up and feel defeated.  That is not a fun way to live.  And I believe in Chalene Johnson's idea of having a Crazy, Ridiculous, Amazing, Fun-Filled Life  (CRAFFL).  Hope I got that right Chalene.

So right now I am going through Chalene's 30 Push challenge and today is day 3, goal setting.  Making AMAZING goals for what I want to accomplish and how I want my life to look.  In her 30 day Push she teaches you how to make those goals a reality.  Application is key.  I love that she says if you are taking info in and learning and learning but never applying...STOP!  Implement what you learn.

10 Goals sounds easy enough, right? I had the hardest time because I kept reigning myself back.  I didn't want to think too big because I didn't want to disappoint myself or worse, share them and then have people know that I failed.

I'll share a few of the 10 here...no not all 10, I'm not that brave yet.  Keep in mind that we're supposed to write them as if they're happening so here it goes.

1) I am gainfully self employed and my schedule is mine to decide.

2) My boys and I have taken 2 nice vacations.

3) I drive a completely paid for 2010 Ford Mustang.

4) I have a fully funded emergency fund.

5) I am a fit and healthy size 8.

6) I wake up smiling.

7) I am generous with my time and money, supporting local organizations that have a huge impact in line with my priorities which are sharing Jesus love and supporting families.

Yep, completing those would be crazy and amazing and I would be off the hook excited to be living that life.

I know these goals are going to take work and I'm willing to put in the work to have that kind of life.  A week from now I'm supposed to write a new list of goals without looking at today's list and as things fall off and adjust I am supposed to run with it.  This shall be interesting.

I can't wait!!!

Positivity

Can  I just tell you how excited  I am about my life?  There is so much crazy going on in it but I am so deeply and genuinely happy.  I can only say "Thank you GOD for all your goodness to me". Some people would look at my life and think there's nothing to be happy about.  A broken marriage.  Split custody of my youngest son.  Recovering from breast cancer.

But let me tell you, God has sustained me and refreshed my soul during these struggles and trials.  So much so that I can sincerely say that I am happy in my life.

In addition to sustaining me and refreshing me He has planted seeds in my heart and mind and is stirring in me the courage to step out of my comfort zone and try something new.  Doing the same thing over and over again creates a rut.  I don't want to be in a rut because eventually if you stay on that path you wear it down and it because a valley between narrow deep walls and it threatens to overwhelm you and swallow you whole.  That is not how I want to live.

As the plan becomes clearer and  I move in active obedience to God's leading I will share more.  In the meantime please know that God's grace and goodness is a precious gift He wants to share with everyone.  The creator of the world knows YOU and EVERYTHING that concerns you.  Give it over to Him and see how much lighter and freer you feel.

Praying blessings over you and your circumstances.

Much love,
Joyce

I'm BAAACCCCKKKKKKK

Oh my!  I didn't mean to start this and then disappear, leaving you hanging. 




After diagnosis and 2 biopsies, 2 surgeries, an accidental severe sunburn that put off the start of radiation by 2 weeks and then 5 weeks of radiation treatments, I have felt slightly rung out and run down.  I am used to being active, especially on beautiful days.  I have lived on my couch resting when not at work, treatment or other required living events. 


I am declaring today that I am going to regain my life and get my energy back and start celebrating that I am done with cancer. 


Time to hit my goals and to do things that make me happy.  I am going back to writing and start recording and enjoying the people that God has abundantly blessed me with.  I am not going to stand by timidly as life moves on.  I am going to live fully and do things daily that make me happy and give me joy!


I am starting to take steps daily to bring me to my goals.  They aren't going to happen until I am intentional and as that is my word for the year it is time to start moving in it.  I intentionally worked with my son to help him get to grade level work at school as that is something he struggles with.  I intentionally did everything I needed to in order to fight breast cancer.  Now I am going to get intentional about getting the life I want to live.  I want life that will make me happy to have lived when I look back at the end of my days. 


So that is what you are going to see more of on my blog.  What am I doing?  Why am I doing it?  What do I want my life to look at.  This is my accountability.  This is me being vulnerable. 


I want to be interactive.  Leave comments, good, bad and anywhere in between.  If you see me heading for a cliff, call out to me.  Let me know if you see something I don't.  Let me know if I'm encouraging you or stressing you out. 


Let's do this together and get to where we want our lives to be. 


I believe in me and I believe in you!


Loves!!!


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